it's dark so why can't my eyes just adjust
to the view of a life without you
and it's cold so why can't my frail, fragile little body just warm up
when all's told and i'm lost without you
without you without you without you without you

she stood there at the bar sipping her beverage
she seemed amused, you could tell that she's somewhat vacant, so
i stepped up to the bar and ordered her another drink
i could hear her heart singing, i heard it say
"i thought you were beautiful on the inside
but i only wanted to tear at you,
tear at your soul from the inside out."
well i know that i'm not the one,
the one you thought was s'posed to be
for you you you you you.

oh well,
it's another day, i've had my say
and i've got more sway than you would even know
down and out, cold and boneless,
guess i've gotta step up and own this
but i don't even know where this is coming from
who am i now and what are the things that i've done
what have i become?
don't you love when you can't figure out
what all those past loves were all about?
oh don't you remember me? oh sure you do
i know you, you never forget a thing
oh don't you remember me?
i'm the cute girl from across the bar

i thought there was a soul in you,
i thought there was a safety net

i thought there was a means to an end
you fedex'd your nail clippings in the mail
said "i don't need these anymore,
but i know you find pleasure in special treasures
so maybe you could find some use for them"
like, how could you be so cruel?
i'll send you magazine clippings when i'm famous,
just to show you what you missed out on, bitch.
you get more attention than you're worth
well i think that you're worth less than shit
more worthless than the god you sell yourself as
you may think i'm trash, i think you're the same
it's over and done, i live in pain
we could have loved each other
why are we fighting when i miss you so?
i thought we could talk things out
aren't you skilled in the art of conversation?

i'm tired of living my life in fear
that one of these days you'll wander away
and i want nothing more than to hold you close to me
but how could i live with myself at the end every day
the world's warped the world's a vampire
the world is squiggly the world's outside the lines
the world is nothing to me but the darkest parts of your eyes
you're both the happiness and the death destroying my life
i hate myself 'cause i love you so,
i'll hate myself
more
if you go

as a dog returns to its vomit, i will return to you someday